Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Nothing - not even...

"I'm absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God's love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us."
- Romans 8:38-39 (The Message)

nothing. Not even my slacking off and not giving this relationship the attention it deserves. It's been a lonely period, but it's my fault. I turned my attention away. You were still here, are always here, will always be here. Faithful love.

Saturday, November 07, 2009

Angry with God...

I've been angry with God this week. In fact, I've been giving Him the silent treatment - which in retrospect is about the dumbest thing ever. In my attempt to show God how mad I was that He allowed me to be hurt so deeply, I cut off my only true source of comfort, love and fulfillment. As I said - not my brightest move.

And the really silly part is that God already understood how hurt I was because He knows my heart. He knew I was blaming Him for something that was not His fault. He knew I was hurting myself even more by disconnecting from Him. He knew.

This morning I picked up a book of prayers I've been reading through and in my heart I basically dared God to try to speak to me. My attitude was "I'm here. I'm showing up. Now where are You?" And I turned the page where I'd left off and read...
Lord Jesus, I sin.

There was a page of text beneath that line, but all I could do was read the first one over and over...

Lord Jesus, I sin.
I turned away from you in my hurt and anger.
Lord Jesus, I sin.
I blamed You for the pain and betrayal,
but You are good and faithful.
You did not hurt me.
Lord Jesus, I sin.
I shut You out rather than wrapping myself in Your Truth.
Forgive me, Lord Jesus, I sin.

Monday, October 19, 2009

The water of grace...

...My heart is without affection, and full of leaks.

My memory has no retention,
so I forget easily the lessons learned,
and thy truths slip away.

Give me a broken heart that yet carries home the water of grace.

The Valley of Vision, Puritan Prayers - A. Bennett

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Show me...

Show me how to know when a thing is evil

which I think is right and good,

how to know when what is lawful

comes from an evil principle...

The Valley of Vision, Puritans Prayers by A. Bennett

Monday, September 28, 2009

God's social network...

I love The Message. As I've said before, it gives me a new perspective on the Bible. Today I read from 2 Peter:
"So, friends, confirm God's invitation to you, his choice of you. Don't put it off; do it now. Do this, and you'll have your life on a firm footing, the streets paved and the way wide open into the eternal kingdom of our Master and Savior, Jesus Christ."
Immediately I pictured God sending me a friend request on Facebook. Obviously in reality we're talking a much huger scale, but consider it for a second. Our response to God can be to accept the request, click to ignore it and make it go away... or just delay until we decide whether we want to open ourselves up to Him.

In my experience, accepting never disappoints.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Partnership...

Prayer is not magic;

It does not always work;

It is not something we do,

But a response to what God is already doing within us and around the world.


Our prayers are the necessary opening that allows God to act without violating our freedom.


Prayer is the ultimate act of partnership with God.

- Walter Wink

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

In follow-up...

Recently I posted about The Message. Along a similar theme, there's the God's Word translation in clear, natural English. Translated directly from the Hebrew, Aramaic, and Greek, it is an exceptional literary work that consciously combines scholarly fidelity with natural English.

And it's available for free download this month! Click here to download the New Testament in MP3, MP4 or WMA format. The coupon code is SEP2009. Happy listening!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Simple faith and plain truth...

A few months ago I started reading the Bible in an everyday language paraphrase called The Message. The preface, written by creator Eugene Peterson, describes it as a Bible that is read-able and for people who have lost interest in reading the Bible. Peterson's goal when working on The Message was simply to get people reading the Bible.

I know for some people (ahem) The Message isn't their cup of tea. But for me - it has been awesome. I'm not only enjoying it, but understanding and learning from it. If you're stuck in a rut, feel spiritually dried out, unable to 'get into' other versions, I highly recommend you give it a try.

You can buy a copy on Amazon.com for about $10. (Not convinced? What if I told you Bono endorsed it?)

Here's an excerpt from what I read today in 1 Timothy 2:4-7:
He wants not only us but everyone saved, you know, everyone to get to know the truth we've learned: that there's one God and only one, and one Priest-Mediator between God and us—Jesus, who offered himself in exchange for everyone held captive by sin, to set them all free.

Eventually the news is going to get out. (I love this part!)

This and this only has been my appointed work: getting this news to those who have never heard of God, and explaining how it works by simple faith and plain truth.

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Coming attractions...

Frankly we have not set our hearts toward hope. We look at the world and it seems to us that everything is being shaken. Everything seems to be teetering on the brink of disaster - and yet the undergirding of Scripture is that we have a kingdom that cannot be shaken...

God desires that we be living signs of the kingdom, to provide visual aids of what life will look like one day when the kingdom is fully here.... Our privilege is to live out previews of "coming attractions" revealing what this kingdom will look like.

-- Tim Dearborn, World Vision

Thursday, July 23, 2009

15 questions...

A blog I enjoy reading recently had a post listing 48 accountability questions from various sources. I read through them and compiled 15 I thought were 'best' for me. That's not to say that the others don't apply (I wish!) but these are key areas for me.

Take a look at the list below or see all 48. If you read over it and realize the need for an accountability partner - act on it!


1. Am I consciously or unconsciously creating the impression that I am better than I am? In other words, am I a hypocrite?

2.Do I insist upon doing something about which my conscience is uneasy?

3. Am I defeated in any part of my life?

4. How do I spend my spare time?

5. Is there anyone whom I fear, dislike, disown, criticize, hold resentment toward or disregard? If so, what am I going to do about it?

6. Do I grumble and complain constantly?

7. Have I been honoring, understanding and generous in my important relationships this past week? Have I damaged another person by my words, either behind their back or face-to-face?

8. Am I a slave to dress, friends, work, or habits?

9. Am I jealous, impure, critical, irritable, touchy or distrustful?

10. Am I enjoying prayer?

11. When did I last speak to someone about my faith? Who have I talked with about Christ this week? Is there anything that has dampened my zeal for Christ?

12. Have I lacked any integrity in my financial dealings this week, or coveted something that does not belong to me? Do I pray about the money I spend?

13. What have I held back from God that I need to surrender?

14. Did I finish my reading this week and hear from the Lord? What am I going to do about it?

15. Have I been completely honest in answering these?

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Counsel from a wise friend...

Proverbs 17:17 says that a friend loves at all times. I experienced that kind of loving friendship today. Last night I emailed a friend and told her how I was hurting. She immediately replied, not with rambling words and clichés but with the promise to pray for me right then and there. She wrote again today with wise words, carefully chosen and spoken, that immediately helped relieve the pain and anger and move me towards healing. She also gave me a list of verses from the Bible that she wanted to encourage me with - and also the promise to keep praying.

This is the kind of friend I want to be to others - loving at all times and taking the time to be loving.

Psalm 34:18
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Psalm 71:3
Be my rock of refuge,
to which I can always go;
give the command to save me,
for you are my rock and my fortress.

Romans 5:3
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance.

1 Peter 5:10
And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

Psalm 66:8-10
Praise our God, O peoples,
let the sound of his praise be heard;
He has preserved our lives
and kept our feet from slipping.
For you, O God, tested us;
you refined us like silver.

Psalm 17:7-9
Show the wonder of your great love,
you who save by your right hand
those who take refuge in you from their foes.

Keep me as the apple of your eye;
hide me in the shadow of your wings

From the wicked who assail me,
from my mortal enemies who surround me.

Exodus 3:14
God said to Moses, "I am who I am. This is what you are to say to the Israelites: 'I AM has sent me to you.' "

Psalm 20:7,8
Some trust in chariots and some in horses,
but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.

They are brought to their knees and fall,
but we rise up and stand firm.

Psalm 31:14-17
But I trust in you, O LORD;
I say, "You are my God."

My times are in your hands;
deliver me from my enemies
and from those who pursue me.

Let your face shine on your servant;
save me in your unfailing love.

Let me not be put to shame, O LORD,
for I have cried out to you;
but let the wicked be put to shame
and lie silent in the grave.

Psalm 71:3
Be my rock of refuge,
to which I can always go;
give the command to save me,
for you are my rock and my fortress.

Psalm 68:17, 19-20
The chariots of God are tens of thousands
and thousands of thousands;
the Lord has come from Sinai into his sanctuary.

Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior,
who daily bears our burdens.

Our God is a God who saves;
from the Sovereign LORD comes escape from death.

Isaiah 54:17
No weapon forged against you will prevail,
and you will refute every tongue that accuses you.
This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD,
and this is their vindication from me,"
declares the LORD.

Psalm 35:1-3
Contend, O LORD, with those who contend with me;
fight against those who fight against me.
Take up shield and buckler;
arise and come to my aid.
Brandish spear and javelin
against those who pursue me.
Say to my soul,
"I am your salvation."

And the ones she highly recommended: Psalm 91:1, 4-5
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,

...and Psalm 91:1
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

Monday, June 22, 2009

I ask...

I ask the God of our Master, Jesus Christ, the God of glory —

to make you intelligent and discerning in knowing Him personally

your eyes focused and clear, so that you can see exactly what it is He is calling you to do

grasp the immensity of this glorious way of life He has for His followers,

oh, the utter extravagance of His work in us who trust Him

— endless energy, boundless strength!

Ephesians 1:15-19 (The Message)

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Responding with action, not surprise...

"Why do Christians stand silent when our President makes the statement, 'we are not a Christian nation any longer'?

I can’t speak for all Christians, but I can tell you why I don’t address it… He’s right. We’re no longer a Christian nation. Christians need to realize we live in a post-Christian nation, start understanding the implications of that change, and stop whining. Read Ecclesiastes 7:10 What are some of the ‘implications’? Being missional and serving the world are two great starting points. Also, in a post-Christian world, people don’t care how much you know until they know how much you care.
-- From a Q&A email sent out by Ken Williams, pastor of West Cobb Church

As one who agrees completely with his response, I wanted to share it. Now is not the time to be surprised that we are 'not a Christian nation any longer', but it is the time to fulfill our calling given by Jesus in Matthew 28: to go out an share the message of Christ's love with those God has placed in your life.

And remember His promise, "I'll be with you as you do this, day after day after day, right up to the end of the age."

Friday, May 29, 2009

Writing my own eulogy...

"Gone, but not forgotten," is a promise we often hear when the beloved die.

I am blessed with family and friends around the world, but I can assure you that after my death I will be forgotten. Maybe not right away, but soon. If between now and the end of my life I, by God's grace, accomplish many wonderful things - I will still be forgotten. Even if I discover a cure for cancer, find a solution for world hunger or put an end to human trafficking - I will be forgotten. People may remember my name, see a statue of me or take a test in which my name is multiple choice answer C. But who I really am, how I've loved, my personal accomplishments and all that makes me who I am will be forgotten.

This realization doesn't bother me. It's actually a wonderful relief. Everything that I want from this world cannot be extracted and experienced in this lifetime. But I'm not living for this lifetime. I'm living for the promise of what's to come.

I'm living for a place without suffering, fear or pain. I'm living for a time when people from every age, culture and language will be together in a harmony designed by the Creator of my universe. I'm living for a God who will never abandon me, a relationship that will never end, and a love greater than I can understand.

People will forget me. They will forget the details of my face and the sound of my voice.

God will not forget me. I'm his beloved daughter and He delights in me. I will be gone, but remembered by God.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Resurrection...

From The Valley of Vision: A collection of Puritan Prayers and Devotions

O God of my exodus,
Great was the joy of Israel’s sons
when Egypt died upon the shore,

Far greater the joy
when the Redeemer’s foe lay crushed in the dust.

Jesus strides forth as the victor,
conqueror of death, hell, and all opposing might;

He bursts the bands of death,
tramples the powers of darkness down,
and lives for ever.

He, my gracious surety,
apprehended for payment of my debt,
comes forth from the prison house of the grave
free, and triumphant over sin, Satan, and death.

Show me herein the proof that his vicarious offering is accepted,
that the claims of justice are satisfied,
that the devil’s sceptre is shivered,
that his wrongful throne is levelled.

Give me the assurance that in Christ I died, in Him I rose,
in His life I live, in His victory I triumph,
in His ascension I shall be glorified.

Adorable Redeemer,
Thou who wast lifted up upon a cross
art ascended to highest heaven.

Thou, who as man of sorrows wast crowned with thorns,
art now as Lord of life wreathed with glory.

Once, no shame more deep than Thine,
no agony more bitter, no death more cruel.

Now, no exaltation more high,
no life more glorious, no advocate more effective.

Thou art in the triumph car leading captive Thine enemies behind Thee.

What more could be done than Thou hast done!
Thy death is my life, Thy resurrection my peace,
Thy ascension my hope, Thy prayers my comfort.

Friday, March 06, 2009

Justice...

"What have you given me, Father, that I might help those who don't have power, who don't have protection, who don't have freedom, who don't have justice?"
- G. Haugen in Good News About Injustice

This is my prayer. From my toes to my fingertips, this is my prayer. And I pray it to a God who despises injustice, who knows suffering firsthand and who is powerful and faithful. He does not need me in order to accomplish anything, but He calls me by name to play a specific role in His plan to bring justice.

"All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing."
-Edmund Burke

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Doors and windows...

I don't believe that God closes a door
then opens a window.

I believe that sometime He closes the window
that is distracting us from the door He has opened for us.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Now I see...

This morning we listened to a sermon about turning worries into prayer. The verse given was Philippians 4:6-7:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
In the original Greek text, this is basically three different ways of saying, "pray, pray and pray". In the sermon, Ken went on to explain that one way to pray, inspired by the Old Testament, is meditation. Where worrying is picturing the future without God, meditating is picturing how God could move and act in the same situation. (I really encourage you to listen to the sermon.)

At the end, we each closed our eyes and took a few minutes to meditate on a situation that had been leading us to worry. I had a few to choose from, being quite the pro at worrying. But one stood out from the others: moving to Senegal in two years. This was my biggest sleep-loser.

But this time, rather than focus on the worrisome details, I pictured what God might do in the situation...

I saw Jonathan using his hands to treat patients in pain... I saw us speaking languages we don't even know yet, becoming friends with our neighbors... I saw us working with Talibe street kids, washing their clothes and cleaning wounds... I saw Jonathan building relationships with people in the medical community and me with American expats who needed help adjusting to their new life... I saw our kids playing with Senegalese kids and translating for health clinics... I saw us returning to the friends we'd left four years ago and them understanding how much we love them... I saw us being used to show God's love to people who don't yet know it...

With each image that came across my mind, more tears flowed. It was a joy that I admit I haven't felt in a long time because I allowed worry and fear to overtake it.

God hasn't brought me to this place in life to abandon me at the next step.

God has great things in store for me.

God can turn every image I saw into reality.

God can fulfill the desires and dreams I didn't even know were in my heart, but He knew because He placed them there.

Now I see.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Voting Like It Matters

It's not only our civic duty — it's a sacred one.
Charles Colson with Anne Morse | posted 10/10/2008 08:12AM

I have been surprised by the number of Christians who have given up on politics this year. "I don't like either candidate, so I'm staying home," some say.

I get fed up with the vain posturing and empty promises, too. But not voting is not an option—it's both our civic and sacred duty. Voting is required of us as good citizens and as God's agents for appointing leaders.

How do we go about choosing the best candidates? Not by pulling a partisan lever—that's knee-jerk ideology. Christians live instead by revealed truth, never captive to any party. Thus, the best place to go for wisdom is not the candidates' websites, but the Bible.

Moses' father-in-law, Jethro, advised him to appoint as rulers "able men" who "fear God, men who are trustworthy and who hate a bribe." The standard is competence and integrity. Later, God ordered Samuel to pick Saul, who "shall save my people from the hand of the Philistines." This passage reminds us of Paul's teaching in Romans: Government's role is to wield the sword to preserve order and restrain evil. So we should seek leaders best able to do that and to pursue justice.

Today, God no longer chooses our leaders directly (although some of us wish he did, if only to spare us the years-long political campaigns). We live in a democracy, so God entrusts to us the job of choosing leaders he will anoint. (Deuteronomy 1:12–13 shows us that democratic principles go directly back to the Old Testament.) Like Samuel, we are commissioned to choose leaders of competence, virtue, and character. That's why not voting or rejecting candidates because they are not perfect on some biblical or political score sheet is a dereliction of our trust.

So is voting for a candidate simply because he is a Christian—startling as this may sound. Rather than checking on the candidates' denomination, we should look for the ablest candidate. Martin Luther famously said he would rather be ruled by a competent Turk—that is, a Muslim—than an incompetent Christian.

In casting a vote, judgment should ultimately be guided by what we perceive to be the common good, a term not often heard in today's special interest–charged political debates. Our founders understood this, which is why they used the term commonweal, or commonwealth. But today's politicians pander to special interests, as we saw last year when congressmen dumped over $13.2 billion into earmarks, paying off special pleaders.

But if we look at politics from God's perspective, we see that he has a deep and abiding interest in all people being treated fairly. If God favors any "special interest group," it is the poor, the hungry, the unborn, the handicapped, the prisoner—those with the least access to political power.

This is why we Christians should never allow ourselves to be, as the press has often characterized us, just another special interest group pleading for our agendas only. But if we were a special interest group, we would be lobbying for the dignity of all, especially those who can't always speak for themselves.

So maybe a particular candidate isn't going to cut your taxes or vote for your favorite program, but the real question is, will he serve all the people, or only the loudest?

After considering these criteria, if you are still tempted to stay home on Election Day, dust off your copy of The City of God, in which Augustine introduces us to the idea that we live in both the City of God and the City of Man. In describing them, he reiterated Jesus' teaching that while Christians live in the City of Man, they do not belong to it. We are like sojourners in a foreign country; our true home is the City of God.

But Augustine also taught that if we are to enjoy the blessings of the City of Man, we must assume the obligations of citizenship. Instead of doing our civic duty out of compulsion, the Christian does it gladly, out of obedience to God and love of neighbor.

Augustine's teaching also helps us to put the coming election into perspective. Some will be jubilant over the outcome, others bitterly disappointed. But regardless of the returns, the City of God endures. When Augustine was informed that his beloved city of Rome was in flames, his response was that the City of Man is built by man and can be destroyed by man, but the City of God is built by God and cannot be destroyed.

On Election Day we should be the best of citizens, voting for the candidate best for all the people.

And then the next day, after indulging in your celebration—or pity party—get busy working to advance God's kingdom in this earthly society.

Copyright © 2008 Christianity Today. This article first appeared in October 2008 issue of Christianity Today. Used by permission of Christianity Today International, Carol Stream, IL 60188.

Friday, October 17, 2008

A place of peace...

As the US presidential election approaches, the weight of my absentee ballot seemed to be getting heavier. I had done my research, prayed for wisdom, talked with people whose opinions I respect...the only thing left to do was fill in a circle and mail it in.

Working my way towards a decision was difficult for me. Living abroad adds a new twist on nearly every facet. I can't look at any issue or candidate without a French filter added. And my priorities are different living here than if we lived in the US. The president affects my day-to-day differently here than if we lived there.

After months of feeling torn, I recently came to a place of peace. The bottom line is that either candidate can do amazing things if their heart is surrendered to God. So my prayers will be for their hearts, for strength, courage, boldness, passion, wisdom and faithful devotion to God.

God chose a shepherd boy to be king and He equipped him. God chose a corrupt tax collector and He changed his heart. God chose a prostitute to help His people.

I have no doubts that He can use either candidate. Pray with me for them.